It’s Valentine’s Day and I woke up so happy for all the love in the air. The air is buzzing and I can feel it because I’m a match for it, which wasn’t always my reality. For years Valentines Day felt like expectation. For myself and the men I was dating. It felt like judgement, around capitalism and “all the ways holidays are used for profit”. It felt like comparison, especially when it came to my relationships and how we were and were not comparing to others. Or worse, comparing myself to those in relationships if I wasn’t in one.
But this year?
This year is different.
I feel love and nothing but it.
It’s a safe feeling.
It’s genuine.
And from within.
Not manufactured. Not outsourced. It’s not something someone gave me wrapped in a box or sitting in a vase. (Though I love gifts and flowers are my weakness.) It’s something I feel.
To sit here and write this took discipline.
A break from my feminine, where I have been,
dimmed
Living the melodies that accompany the questioning of things.
Painting my days with the colours that make black and white reality.
Far from my usual drive to share what I was experiencing; choosing instead to slow into my own energy.
My own healing.
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I let the diary fall away to chase butterflies.
Drink tea.
Notice patterns.
And heal parts of me I didn’t know needed healing.
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