A lot has changed since I last sat in a cafe and wrote in this space.

Like, overcoming my fear of flying, finding love unexpectedly, moving to a new city and helping another group of empaths learn to sell their offering - authentically.

Then came the migraines.

The fatigue.

The nights of talking about what needed to shift, but not knowing ‘what that is’. All I knew was that I was tired. Really, really tired. (Sleeping 11, 12, 13 hours and losing motivation at a very quick rate.) So I pulled in my energy and paid attention to what my symptoms were saying, because they were speaking loudly and I knew I needed to listen.

The main message:

I’m tired of the responsibility I’ve been carrying. I’m tired of spending so much of my valuable time ‘learning’ other people’s lessons and trying to protect others from what they do not want to see, feel or experience. I’m tired of censoring myself in fear of the backlash from those not yet conscious to their triggers.

I’m tired of carrying the unconscious;
Those sleeping while I’m awake working. Hard. For centuries.

Cause that’s what so much of my life is these days.
That how I’ve been spending my days:

Tiptoeing in fear of unsteadying somebody. Or making someone THINK differently.

(A big, big risk, because if they don’t like it, I have to deal with their feelings, which has long been my responsibility.)

I’ve been moving through my days in fear of the emotions I’ll feel for another if they are not happy with something I say, knowing it’s me who will have to deal with their pain if they don’t like my ways. Because I’m good at it; at feeling feelings that is. I was made sensitive and am designed to please. If you’re not happy, I feel it within me, so much that I think the issue IS me. When you’re in my energy I become what you need.

i hope to trigger you

to say something that hurts you
offends you
makes you think
differently

because we as a world are counting on you
to do what you came to do
to heal the wounds 
you arrived with
and those you carry because of the suit you are wearing

so we as a people can be free

to

be

what we’ve been wanting:
beings
capable
of
loving

*A poem for all who hurt me, to love me, by showing me the wounds I held within so I could heal them, and in turn, this planet. Mirroring.

I’ll never forget stumbling across ‘the Law of Attraction’ and wondering how that could be a thing. On one hand, it was validating, because even as a child I knew not all was as it seemed. Magic to me, was as real as this tea I am drinking. But I’m also an earth sign and value practicality. I need real, tangible proof to feel sure of something.

So I was torn.

Could we really create things with our thinking?

Was I really in control of my reality?

Especially where I had lived 20+ years without knowledge of this ‘law’ and there was no way I manifested some of what I experienced. There is no way I asked for everything that happened to me. That was challenging to even begin to believe.

But it turns out we can.

And I am.

And my knowledge of the Law of Attraction and the other energetic laws that govern our lives as human beings has only grown since then. Because I’ve been given my proof.

Again, and again.

And again.

In so many forms.

And with so many things; from relationships to clients to health and wellbeing. For myself and others.

So I no longer question my ability to create my world.

At all.

And I no longer misuse my words.

(As they are our wand.)

But I know when you are first learning about the Law of Attraction there is a need to know how it really works. A need for proof. And I know that when you’re in that place of just beginning to see the influence you have over your reality, other people’s stories can be make or break because they give you reason to take your power seriously.